I got my first tattoo the other day. It didn't hurt at all and my tattoo guy is awesome. I am already planning my next one for him to do! I love it.

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. - John 14:27

Sometimes there are no words, no clever quotes to neatly sum up whats happened that day. Sometimes you do everything right, everything exactly right and still you feel like you failed. Did it need to end that way? Could something have been done to prevent the tragedy in the first place? The probability is endless. The real fact of the matter is, you can calculate every minuscule detail of your day, drive your self to the brink of insanity to solve an equation that is near to impossible to figure out. Or you can put it behind you and just breathe with tomorrow a head of you.

I am excited to be going on a date with a guy named Jordan on Friday night. He is 23, 6'6', in college, and works for T mobile. :) He is taking me to some pizza joint he knows of and then to a comedy show/surprise thing. I am so nervous! I hope everything goes well!!

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! Seriously way to excited right now haha..

PHOTO SHOOT... SAY WHAT?!

So far everyone is in love with this picture. I think it was the best one  too!

I love this one.. my collar bone is like BAM!

Those about the only ones I can show. Haha. I love how they all came out though!

I had been waiting for the 5months ive been sick to get insurance back and now that I do I am more scared then I was when I didn't have insurance.

Liver failure? Low function? What the fuck.... im 21. I haven't been drinking a lot. Im not on recreational drugs. Ive lost 80pounds and am eating less fatty foods and working out. Whats going on?!

:/ oh well.... I guess its up to god what happens.

Bones. <3

Christmas was nice. Went to Dustin's for Christmas. Katlyn is so cute. She is 3mths now.. she will be 4mths soon though. Ebony's family was there and they are pretty nice. All and all it was good besides fatass having to go!! lol. I think it is amazing that we had a WHITE CHRISTMAS!! It was epic. :)

My Christmas dress... :) I love how much weight I have lost. It makes dressing up fun haha. Instead of it being hell!! I am past my goal weight now but I think I have a new goal weight. I want to be at least 40pnds less still. 30pnds at the least! I just have to keep up the work at the gym and all that good stuff.. :)

I feel awesome.

Some perv decided he thought he could speak to me, a woman that he hardly knows, in an inappropriate manner. This wasn't the first time. He can't get a clue. This was the hundredth time he thought he could make a gross remark  after being given the cold shoulder to every comment. He just could not take a hint so finally he reached the last straw.

He commented on a facebook status in which I said I "I could use a hot shower. That sounds really relaxing right now." He commented this status and said he would like to join my "water play" I simply said back "No, shane." He obviously thinks that means im being unreasonable in his sick little way and said back "spoken like a married woman" That was when he broke my straw! I said "Uh, no! Spoken like a woman who is not a whore and who does not enjoy everything being turned into a perversion." He didn't much like that and replied back "Someone is bitchy today." so he got this comment back "Excuse me? No. I am telling you how it is. You sound like a pig and I hardly know you! If that is how you speak to people you hardly know then you are going to get some offended people. Do not speak to me that way. Show me respect or go away!" After that a few people noticed his piggish ways and he kind of got over taken by my friends haha... after deleting his comments he deleted me which I cant be more thankful for! I would have done it but I was enjoying feeling like I had my strength back. :)

For the first time I demanded respect from a male with no manners. This wont be the last time I do! :) I deserve respect and wont accept any other bullshit from men like him. I feel bad for the girls he has been with. You can tell he is abusive and I feel bad for the poor young woman who had his child.